Monday, August 18, 2008

Just when you think life can't suck anymore it brings out a bat and hits you upside the head! (Beware adult language may be used in this blog)

I don't really want to explain entirely what that heading is meaning...but I am sure you all know where I am coming from. Honestly just when you think you can't get much lower in life then "TADA" it hits can! Well these last couple days have sucked a lot. One thing after another.

Bills piling up, literally, debt overpowering our checkbook. I feel like our family has had it fair share of shit happen to them. It seems as though someone has decided to take an enormous vomit green crap on all of our heads. It doesn't rain at our house or in our family is comes down with the wrath of God. All you want so desperately is to wake up and feel like life was supposed to work out this way and be able to honestly say, "I love my life". Yeah that load of shit doesn't happen around here. We wake up wondering what kind of ass whooping we are going to get today?!

When you find yourself crying getting into bed, sobbing in the shower, crying while seeing your cleaning list for the know life sucks. Then you watch people on TV who are richer than rich and talk about how much they love their life and you wonder why you should be any different from them. We did the whole business thing and see where it has gotten us...yeah. I am pretty sure God just hates me and is out to make my life just that much more awful. And for those of you who might disagree with me, that is fine. But you are not walking in my shoes....and before you tell me God is only testing me as much as I can handle. Well walk a day or two in my shoes and then come back to me.

I am sure I am going on and on and no one understands. Sorry, if you really want to know then let me know.

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Monica said...

I'm sorry you're having a rough time. You and your husband are amazing people and I know you'll pull through it, even though it's hell right now. I get back in a week or two and am going to take you to lunch! Not that it'll help or anything but I miss you and we can catch up.

Anonymous said...

Can I just say that I totally know that feeling!!!
Heston and I have been STRUGGLING (as far as finance goes) for just over a year. It totally took us by surprise too!!! We were set up thinking that everything was going to pan out so well, then the housing market crashed and unfortunately that is where all of our money was! We spent the entire last year thinking, any day now, something is going to change. Things have to get better. Then something else would happen to make it even worse!!!!!
We have totally felt like someone has been taking a continuous crap on us for the past year. I can't believe how hard it has been.
I am really sorry that you are going through that feeling. It sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Megan said...

I hope things begin to turn around for you and Jon.

Sabrina said...

I am sorry to hear that the crap has hit you as well. It seems to be falling all over lately. I ma sure though that with ho strong you and Jon are that you guys will get through this. Not easy but through it. You can call me anytime to gripe about problems. I am a great listener. :) Love you!!

spaceyhawks said...

Life is just in the crapper for everyone right now I think. I really am sorry things are so sucky. It's the suckiest suck that ever sucked! I know the crying that you are going through, it seems like everyday I'm right there with you. Just know you aren't alone, I can't say I know exactly what you are going through, because my crap is different from your crap, all in all it's still crap. Call me if you need to talk, I'm not my sister, but I am still here for you, if you need me.Love you.