Wednesday, September 24, 2008

My Baby Buddy

At work I was excited these last couple weeks. There was a seamstress who was pregnant as well and she was my baby buddy. Early in my shift I went to visit her and she told me she was going to the doctor because she had been spotting and had a lot of cramps. I of course told her that it was possibly just implantation bleeding and the cramps I think are normal.

After a long day at work I learned she had come back from the doctor and had lost her baby. I walked in to the seamstress area and all she had to do was look at me. She had tears in her eyes and just looked drained. She hugged me and told me that she had lost her baby. I told her all the normal things of "It wasn't time, and it will happen when it is right." You know *those* things. She said that she needed to make sure I took it easy and was careful. And that she was at least lucky that she has children already. There were more hugs and tears and me walking away thinking, "What if that was me?". What would I do, what would I say. I mean I know I am still in the scary area. But here we are 5 years after we met and this just came out of the blue. I am not sure what I would do or how I would handle it.

I guess since I have no feelings of being pregnant other than the fact that I am feeling sick sometimes and tired and potty breaks all the time. No bleeding or anything, just hoping it stays that way. I just feel horrible for her and like I shouldn't be excited about being pregnant anymore at work. But at the same time I can't help it either. Just breaks my heart for such a wonderful woman to experience such a hard and horrible time in her life.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Nausea, heartburn, indigestion, upset stomach, diarrhea!

Okay so no diarrhea, but you get the point. I truly feel bad for any judgments I placed on people prior to this. People that told me they were tired and had food issues in the early stages. I learn now that each pregnancy is very very different.

My sleeping pattern was never really good in the first place. Adding this all into the mix just doesn't help. It hurts my tummy to sleep on either side, so my back it is. Then after a few hours my back hurts, not to mention the bathroom breaks! So I sleep a couple of hours then take a bath or go to the couch and read. I guess it is my bodies way of making me get used to crappy sleep with out drugs!

Now the food, I am hungry ever 20 minutes. Yet the smell of certain foods makes me want to keel over. However, I know if I just eat it and live through it I feel better by the end of the meal. But sometimes it is just too stinky! LOL I know now that there are a few things I will never be able to eat again.

I know that something amazing and miraculous is happening to my body. But do you think it could happen with less issues? Oh and not to mention, Jon and I decided to look at pictures of how big the baby gets each week. And the 40 week mark they had a picture of a small pumpkin! A SMALL PUMPKIN!!! I have to pass that through my vagina???? I realize that I am not the first woman to do this, nor will I be the last. But this is *my* first time, so I freaked out a little. I have seen many many newborns in my life, it just never registered fully. And now it is hitting me...WOW.

Anyway, I will stop now and let you all get back to your normal, not grossed out lives.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Life works in many mysterious ways!

Well there you have it. I rather can't believe it myself, but the doctor confirmed it. I am one day shy of 6 weeks. I have decided to tell whoever because if I have a miscarriage then at least I will have people there to support me.

Many of you know that we honestly thought this was not possible. So to hear the nurse say, yep you are pregnant and your due date is 5/8/09 was crazy. I will keep you posted on any news, but for now I want to rest and just relax as much as possible.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Chipper Anyone?

I figured I needed a chipper post considering my last here goes. A few cool things have happened through the last couple of days. My cousin Jeremy was doing a job for a guy that lives here in Utah. Since he started school recently he isn't able to do the job and school work. So he was able to hand off the job to Jon. Thus Jon has a job so far so good. Family is kind and helping in rent for us, hopefully we will get paid asap from Jon's new job and we can take care of paying them back.

FOOTBALL IS STARTING!!!!!!!! Thursday is the first game of the real season and I cannot wait! We also have three BYU football players next door to us now. They are a lot of fun and really nice guys. Reed #3 (WR), Hooks #47 (LB) and Chambers #11 (WR, PR). So I am excited to watch them kill the Huskies this weekend.

And I am starting back full time since the busy season in back in play at work. Yipee! There are still a bunch of downer things happening right now, but at least things are getting slowly better.

Anyway, there is my chipper post. Hope everyone else is doing wonderful!