It Does Get Worse!!!

Okay so I should have saved my title from the other day to this one. And maybe I am complaining a lot on this blog...but if you have a problem with that don't read it. So as I said the other day life is turning into a big old pile of crap. So far here is what makes August suck:

1. Kelli (my bestfriend/cousin/sister) moved to Moscow, Idaho. Sucks because she was one of the only people I could do certain things with and she would understand it or want to do it with me. So her being 700 miles away sucks so much.
2. Jon got laid off of his job.
3. I got paid WAY under what I expected.
4. I had to apply for food stamps. I have never done this before and believe me it is humbling.

So far life sucks right? Well it gets better....

5. So we get a letter from Jon's old company with a check enclosed. The check is for $0.00 with a letter stating a bunch of fees and so forth. Now the reason Jon got laid off is because of money in the first place, so I am pretty sure they just didn't want to pay us.
6. We have rent due on the 1st, and we have $20.00 to our name until I get paid in a week. And considering how much I was unable to work my check will probably be just as much as the last one if not less. Rent is $1200.00! HAHA
7. I got pulled over yesterday, not for speeding. I was stopped at a red light with a police officer behind me. He decided, even though I didn't do anything wrong, to run my plates. I had no idea that this could happen, but it came back as no insurance. We closed our bank account so our insurance couldn't go through and got canceled. So after waiting in the car sobbing because of my day so far, the officer comes to my window. He asks me if there is anything I have not taken care of like a speeding ticket. It took me a minute, but then I remembered getting pulled over on our way to Vegas and I lost the ticket. Thus the ticket was never paid. So he informs me that there is a warrant out of Beaver County for me because of it. At this point I was tempted to just have him cuff me and take me away to escape all this crap for at least a day. He gave me two options, A. Have him take me in and send me to Beaver County or B. Take a ticket for no insurance and appear in court for it. Um, let me think there officer, I think I will take option B! He let me go with just that ticket and it is up to the judge how much my fine will be.
8. I called Beaver about my once $80.00 ticket and the lady informs me that the fine is now $284.00! Awesome huh? I don't have that kind of money right now. She told me I can pay on it but the warrant won't go away until it is paid off. YIPEE! So I have to stay out of the way of the police for some time.

You know I keep saying that life can't get worse, but guess what, it can. It can get a hell of a lot worse. Ugg....

Just when you think life can't suck anymore it brings out a bat and hits you upside the head! (Beware adult language may be used in this blog)

I don't really want to explain entirely what that heading is meaning...but I am sure you all know where I am coming from. Honestly just when you think you can't get much lower in life then "TADA" it hits you...it can! Well these last couple days have sucked a lot. One thing after another.

Bills piling up, literally, debt overpowering our checkbook. I feel like our family has had it fair share of shit happen to them. It seems as though someone has decided to take an enormous vomit green crap on all of our heads. It doesn't rain at our house or in our family is comes down with the wrath of God. All you want so desperately is to wake up and feel like life was supposed to work out this way and be able to honestly say, "I love my life". Yeah that load of shit doesn't happen around here. We wake up wondering what kind of ass whooping we are going to get today?!

When you find yourself crying getting into bed, sobbing in the shower, crying while seeing your cleaning list for the day....you know life sucks. Then you watch people on TV who are richer than rich and talk about how much they love their life and you wonder why you should be any different from them. We did the whole business thing and see where it has gotten us...yeah. I am pretty sure God just hates me and is out to make my life just that much more awful. And for those of you who might disagree with me, that is fine. But you are not walking in my shoes....and before you tell me God is only testing me as much as I can handle. Well walk a day or two in my shoes and then come back to me.

I am sure I am going on and on and no one understands. Sorry, if you really want to know then let me know.