Kanzius Caner Machine

This is by far one of the most amazing things I have ever seen. I can only imagine what this could do in the future. But hopefully not that far in the future!

A big blurry movie!

My life has become a big old blurry movie it seems. I wake up and get as much housework done as I can, check my e-mails, blogs and bank accounts online. Then I eat breakfast, if I am lucky. Get ready for work and spend 7-8 hours running around dressing up brides. Now don't get me wrong, I love my job very much. I also have to admit that I am pretty damn good at it too. But on a non closing night I get home and spend a little bit of time with my husband. Watch a movie or play poker, something to spend time together. We get exhausted and head to bed to wake up and do it all over again. On a closing night I get home around 10:00pm. Then spend a half hour with Jon and then we crash.
I never have time for anything else anymore, not only that, but no desire to do much. I don't sleep well so I take stuff to help me sleep. Which only makes me more tired in the morning when I don't get 12 hours of sleep. Again I totally dig my job and wouldn't trade it for anything. I guess I am just tired and kind of depressed that I have a dirty house and no clean clothes anymore. I start laundry and then get busy with other things, so it sits there for days on end.
I feel like I am losing part of who I am right now. Almost like a robot in this daily routine and I can't seem to break the cycle. It is driving me nuts to have a dirty house and a pile of laundry that could make a dump jealous. But it is so not typical of me to let it go.
Anyway, just feeling kind of crummy right now. Feeling like I don't have a lot of my life anymore. I love hanging out with Jon and a few friends that I do have. But otherwise I just kind of am flowing through life with this big blindfold on and not sure what or where I am headed next.

I just don't understand...

On Monday afternoon a young seven year old girl left her apartment in South Salt Lake. Her name was Hser Nay Moo, and she was just a little girl! This little girl was just walking around near her own home and and an Amber Alert had to be issued. I am unsure as to what this damn world is coming to!

Today at 7:00pm the police knocked on three doors that were unanswered on Monday. The first two brought nothing and a third door was answered. This apartment brought the worst kind of news ever. They found this young girl in the bathroom of this apartment deceased. This apartment was occupied by five men, and the police only said that she had signs of "trauma". Which can only indicate one thing if you ask me. What makes me sick is that five grown men took a child, a young girl, from her home. They took her and hurt her and killed her and destroyed the lives of so many people. She was an only daughter and I can't even imagine, nor do I want to imagine what they might be going through.

My thoughts and prayers go out to her family and friends. Her friends at school who cannot understand what has happened. When I was in elementary school a girl was taken from her home and found dismembered in a garbage can a few days later. I remember this and it was a thing that no one ever expected or even could fathom happening in our society. And it makes me sick to think that this kind of a thing happens almost 3-4 times a year now. Children being taken from their families and hurt in so many ways, then their life taken.

I guess the one thing I am happy about is that in Utah we still have the death penalty and we use it on some occasions. However we do have death by firing squad, so that is one small hope for these pieces of garbage that did this. My heart is broken for this family and while watching the new conference I could see it struck a chord with the police. There was no dry eye among them and you could see their hearts were hurting tremendously.

All I can say is I know at least the life after this life for these kinds of people will be hell....literally! Keep her family in your thoughts prayers.