Change Can Happen

I couldn't help but tear up last night while listing to my next President Barack Obama. Through out the past 22 months of campaigning I have sought out as much information as my limited brain can handle. In doing so I have grown and really found out who I am and what I stand for. I stand for rights and honor for all people! President Obama stands for those things as well. He represents those of us who have fallen on hard times and those of us who have found the strength to climb up and find a way out. He has been through his own downfalls and disappointments in his life. His mother working two jobs while on food stamps to allow him to get a good education. Not knowing his farther well and still having the family to help him become an amazing man, husband and father.

He sets a wonderful example for us that this life is worth living and worth fighting for. That life can change with a blink of an eye. He stands for equality and shows that you truly can be anything you set your mind to being. He sees that this country is in great agony and knows we need to do something about it now. He represents us 80% middle to lower class citizens who for a long time have been forgotten. Not raising our taxes to ensure that we can contribute to our failing economy. Ensuring that if you work for a large corporation benefits will be provided. He believes that woman have the right to choose. Whatever you choose is your choice and it won't be taken away from you.

Thank you America for making a change happen. You made a huge stamp in the history of the United States. Many people who have died in the past for a cause are singing their praises right now. I feel proud to be an American right now and hope others who don't see it that way will soon realize that Barack Obama was just what our country needed at this time in our history.

3 Months and we have a nose, eyes and mouth in the Ultra Sound! Yipee

Well ladies and gentlemen we have made it through our first trimester so far, okay. I feel pretty good, except I am always tired. Oh and if I don't eat right away when I am hungry I get a little throw up happy, well I can't say happy...but you get the idea.

We had to change doctors because our insurance didn't cover the Midwife we were seeing. So I found a rather old school doctor in Provo and I really enjoy him. He was quick and funny and honest. I was worried about telling the doctor that I didn't want any prenatal testing done, fearing they would try to talk me into it. But I found that he was pleading a case against it before he even asked if I wanted any. So I felt so much better about that portion. I asked for an ultrasound since he has a machine in his office. He was backed up with clients since he was in emergency surgery with a lady earlier that day....but he was gracious and agreed. So we got another ultrasound and say little Rya or Mac move. It was very exciting to see limbs and see a nose and other facial features. It made it all that much more real to see the baby actually not look like a bean so much anymore. Hopefully things over the next could of weeks will get even better.

We are going to find out the sex of the baby for sure in December. Jon thinks it is a girl, but my parents want a boy so bad. I am just weirded out that I am pregnant still. But whatever we have I will be proud and excited all wrapped up in a little bun! My pants are getting tighter and that isn't a good feeling. I realize it will happen and it will only get worse, but come on! LOL When you can't fit maternity clothes just yet, this is annoying. Other than that I am excited because 6 of my friends and family are pregnant now. One of my old roommates is due just a week or so after me! Yipee!!!

Here is baby Campbell again!!

It really is really real! WOW

So this whole thing was never really honestly real to me before today. I mean sure, I had some morning sickness, dizziness and am always tired. But that didn't mean a whole lot until today. At my appointment I met one of the midwives and she was really great. She taught me a lot and asked me a ton of questions. I didn't get a full head to toe exam since I am only 9 weeks. I have another appointment on my 12 week day to get the full "detail". However she heard me say that I wanted a ultrasound so desperately today. So she said she would tell the hospital that we were not sure the due date so we needed to do an ultrasound to get a better idea. :) I measured nine weeks as of today, Wednesday. And my due date is now May 7th!

Seeing the baby and then hearing the heartbeat was by far one of the most amazing moments in my life thus far. I know that may sound stupid, but I have yet to stop smiling since we left the hospital. Thinking this is something that would never in a million years happen to us makes this even more of a miracle. Today started out really horrible, selling my wedding ring for way under price to pay bills was awful. I cried a lot, just because it was something that meant a lot to me. But it was cured for the time being seeing our little sticky bean on the screen! So here are some more of the pictures we got from him, one of them shows the heartbeat at 168.73 per minute, which he said was perfect! YAY

ENJOY, I DID!!

My Baby Buddy

At work I was excited these last couple weeks. There was a seamstress who was pregnant as well and she was my baby buddy. Early in my shift I went to visit her and she told me she was going to the doctor because she had been spotting and had a lot of cramps. I of course told her that it was possibly just implantation bleeding and the cramps I think are normal.

After a long day at work I learned she had come back from the doctor and had lost her baby. I walked in to the seamstress area and all she had to do was look at me. She had tears in her eyes and just looked drained. She hugged me and told me that she had lost her baby. I told her all the normal things of "It wasn't time, and it will happen when it is right." You know *those* things. She said that she needed to make sure I took it easy and was careful. And that she was at least lucky that she has children already. There were more hugs and tears and me walking away thinking, "What if that was me?". What would I do, what would I say. I mean I know I am still in the scary area. But here we are 5 years after we met and this just came out of the blue. I am not sure what I would do or how I would handle it.

I guess since I have no feelings of being pregnant other than the fact that I am feeling sick sometimes and tired and potty breaks all the time. No bleeding or anything, just hoping it stays that way. I just feel horrible for her and like I shouldn't be excited about being pregnant anymore at work. But at the same time I can't help it either. Just breaks my heart for such a wonderful woman to experience such a hard and horrible time in her life.

Nausea, heartburn, indigestion, upset stomach, diarrhea!

Okay so no diarrhea, but you get the point. I truly feel bad for any judgments I placed on people prior to this. People that told me they were tired and had food issues in the early stages. I learn now that each pregnancy is very very different.

My sleeping pattern was never really good in the first place. Adding this all into the mix just doesn't help. It hurts my tummy to sleep on either side, so my back it is. Then after a few hours my back hurts, not to mention the bathroom breaks! So I sleep a couple of hours then take a bath or go to the couch and read. I guess it is my bodies way of making me get used to crappy sleep with out drugs!

Now the food, I am hungry ever 20 minutes. Yet the smell of certain foods makes me want to keel over. However, I know if I just eat it and live through it I feel better by the end of the meal. But sometimes it is just too stinky! LOL I know now that there are a few things I will never be able to eat again.

I know that something amazing and miraculous is happening to my body. But do you think it could happen with less issues? Oh and not to mention, Jon and I decided to look at pictures of how big the baby gets each week. And the 40 week mark they had a picture of a small pumpkin! A SMALL PUMPKIN!!! I have to pass that through my vagina???? I realize that I am not the first woman to do this, nor will I be the last. But this is *my* first time, so I freaked out a little. I have seen many many newborns in my life, it just never registered fully. And now it is hitting me...WOW.

Anyway, I will stop now and let you all get back to your normal, not grossed out lives.

Life works in many mysterious ways!

Well there you have it. I rather can't believe it myself, but the doctor confirmed it. I am one day shy of 6 weeks. I have decided to tell whoever because if I have a miscarriage then at least I will have people there to support me.

Many of you know that we honestly thought this was not possible. So to hear the nurse say, yep you are pregnant and your due date is 5/8/09 was crazy. I will keep you posted on any news, but for now I want to rest and just relax as much as possible.

Chipper Anyone?

I figured I needed a chipper post considering my last ones....so here goes. A few cool things have happened through the last couple of days. My cousin Jeremy was doing a job for a guy that lives here in Utah. Since he started school recently he isn't able to do the job and school work. So he was able to hand off the job to Jon. Thus Jon has a job so far so good. Family is kind and helping in rent for us, hopefully we will get paid asap from Jon's new job and we can take care of paying them back.

FOOTBALL IS STARTING!!!!!!!! Thursday is the first game of the real season and I cannot wait! We also have three BYU football players next door to us now. They are a lot of fun and really nice guys. Reed #3 (WR), Hooks #47 (LB) and Chambers #11 (WR, PR). So I am excited to watch them kill the Huskies this weekend.

And I am starting back full time since the busy season in back in play at work. Yipee! There are still a bunch of downer things happening right now, but at least things are getting slowly better.

Anyway, there is my chipper post. Hope everyone else is doing wonderful!