Nausea, heartburn, indigestion, upset stomach, diarrhea!

Okay so no diarrhea, but you get the point. I truly feel bad for any judgments I placed on people prior to this. People that told me they were tired and had food issues in the early stages. I learn now that each pregnancy is very very different.

My sleeping pattern was never really good in the first place. Adding this all into the mix just doesn't help. It hurts my tummy to sleep on either side, so my back it is. Then after a few hours my back hurts, not to mention the bathroom breaks! So I sleep a couple of hours then take a bath or go to the couch and read. I guess it is my bodies way of making me get used to crappy sleep with out drugs!

Now the food, I am hungry ever 20 minutes. Yet the smell of certain foods makes me want to keel over. However, I know if I just eat it and live through it I feel better by the end of the meal. But sometimes it is just too stinky! LOL I know now that there are a few things I will never be able to eat again.

I know that something amazing and miraculous is happening to my body. But do you think it could happen with less issues? Oh and not to mention, Jon and I decided to look at pictures of how big the baby gets each week. And the 40 week mark they had a picture of a small pumpkin! A SMALL PUMPKIN!!! I have to pass that through my vagina???? I realize that I am not the first woman to do this, nor will I be the last. But this is *my* first time, so I freaked out a little. I have seen many many newborns in my life, it just never registered fully. And now it is hitting me...WOW.

Anyway, I will stop now and let you all get back to your normal, not grossed out lives.

Life works in many mysterious ways!

Well there you have it. I rather can't believe it myself, but the doctor confirmed it. I am one day shy of 6 weeks. I have decided to tell whoever because if I have a miscarriage then at least I will have people there to support me.

Many of you know that we honestly thought this was not possible. So to hear the nurse say, yep you are pregnant and your due date is 5/8/09 was crazy. I will keep you posted on any news, but for now I want to rest and just relax as much as possible.

Chipper Anyone?

I figured I needed a chipper post considering my last ones....so here goes. A few cool things have happened through the last couple of days. My cousin Jeremy was doing a job for a guy that lives here in Utah. Since he started school recently he isn't able to do the job and school work. So he was able to hand off the job to Jon. Thus Jon has a job so far so good. Family is kind and helping in rent for us, hopefully we will get paid asap from Jon's new job and we can take care of paying them back.

FOOTBALL IS STARTING!!!!!!!! Thursday is the first game of the real season and I cannot wait! We also have three BYU football players next door to us now. They are a lot of fun and really nice guys. Reed #3 (WR), Hooks #47 (LB) and Chambers #11 (WR, PR). So I am excited to watch them kill the Huskies this weekend.

And I am starting back full time since the busy season in back in play at work. Yipee! There are still a bunch of downer things happening right now, but at least things are getting slowly better.

Anyway, there is my chipper post. Hope everyone else is doing wonderful!

It Does Get Worse!!!

Okay so I should have saved my title from the other day to this one. And maybe I am complaining a lot on this blog...but if you have a problem with that don't read it. So as I said the other day life is turning into a big old pile of crap. So far here is what makes August suck:

1. Kelli (my bestfriend/cousin/sister) moved to Moscow, Idaho. Sucks because she was one of the only people I could do certain things with and she would understand it or want to do it with me. So her being 700 miles away sucks so much.
2. Jon got laid off of his job.
3. I got paid WAY under what I expected.
4. I had to apply for food stamps. I have never done this before and believe me it is humbling.

So far life sucks right? Well it gets better....

5. So we get a letter from Jon's old company with a check enclosed. The check is for $0.00 with a letter stating a bunch of fees and so forth. Now the reason Jon got laid off is because of money in the first place, so I am pretty sure they just didn't want to pay us.
6. We have rent due on the 1st, and we have $20.00 to our name until I get paid in a week. And considering how much I was unable to work my check will probably be just as much as the last one if not less. Rent is $1200.00! HAHA
7. I got pulled over yesterday, not for speeding. I was stopped at a red light with a police officer behind me. He decided, even though I didn't do anything wrong, to run my plates. I had no idea that this could happen, but it came back as no insurance. We closed our bank account so our insurance couldn't go through and got canceled. So after waiting in the car sobbing because of my day so far, the officer comes to my window. He asks me if there is anything I have not taken care of like a speeding ticket. It took me a minute, but then I remembered getting pulled over on our way to Vegas and I lost the ticket. Thus the ticket was never paid. So he informs me that there is a warrant out of Beaver County for me because of it. At this point I was tempted to just have him cuff me and take me away to escape all this crap for at least a day. He gave me two options, A. Have him take me in and send me to Beaver County or B. Take a ticket for no insurance and appear in court for it. Um, let me think there officer, I think I will take option B! He let me go with just that ticket and it is up to the judge how much my fine will be.
8. I called Beaver about my once $80.00 ticket and the lady informs me that the fine is now $284.00! Awesome huh? I don't have that kind of money right now. She told me I can pay on it but the warrant won't go away until it is paid off. YIPEE! So I have to stay out of the way of the police for some time.

You know I keep saying that life can't get worse, but guess what, it can. It can get a hell of a lot worse. Ugg....

Just when you think life can't suck anymore it brings out a bat and hits you upside the head! (Beware adult language may be used in this blog)

I don't really want to explain entirely what that heading is meaning...but I am sure you all know where I am coming from. Honestly just when you think you can't get much lower in life then "TADA" it hits you...it can! Well these last couple days have sucked a lot. One thing after another.

Bills piling up, literally, debt overpowering our checkbook. I feel like our family has had it fair share of shit happen to them. It seems as though someone has decided to take an enormous vomit green crap on all of our heads. It doesn't rain at our house or in our family is comes down with the wrath of God. All you want so desperately is to wake up and feel like life was supposed to work out this way and be able to honestly say, "I love my life". Yeah that load of shit doesn't happen around here. We wake up wondering what kind of ass whooping we are going to get today?!

When you find yourself crying getting into bed, sobbing in the shower, crying while seeing your cleaning list for the day....you know life sucks. Then you watch people on TV who are richer than rich and talk about how much they love their life and you wonder why you should be any different from them. We did the whole business thing and see where it has gotten us...yeah. I am pretty sure God just hates me and is out to make my life just that much more awful. And for those of you who might disagree with me, that is fine. But you are not walking in my shoes....and before you tell me God is only testing me as much as I can handle. Well walk a day or two in my shoes and then come back to me.

I am sure I am going on and on and no one understands. Sorry, if you really want to know then let me know.

Toe Update

So I finally decided to head to the doctor because my toe was not looking any better. There was a big chunk you could fold back and it was kind of gross. So the doctor said it was infected, even with my attempts to clean it up. The doctor said that she needed to do a surgery on it right then. So we numbed it all up and she cut a bunch of it all off. It bled tons for about 5 minutes with the doctor holding a piece of gauze on it the whole time. The numbing felt really strange and then the pain came! WOW!!

It hurt so bad that I couldn't really walk at all on it. The nurse put a pressure bandage on it and they told me to keep it dry and make sure not to walk too much on it. I have some medicine to take and some other meds for it. Well needless to say my toe is gross and looks funny with a "cast" on it. I also received a tetanus shot, which hurts now. So needless to say I didn't work today since it hurts like a mother to stand on it.

Here are some pictures of it and the little devil herself. She is cute, but mind you her bite isn't so cute. ;)

Molly vs My Toe

So on July 10th we decided to get something for Zoe for her birthday.....yeah. We got her a puppy Golden Retriever. Her name is Molly and she is a sweet girl but is teething. So she is biting all sorts of things, hands, bottles, carpet, stairs, beds....you know. But most of all today it was a bite to my big toe on my right foot. Now I already have a bone spur on my right ankle, but man did this hurt. I tore my foot away and it just started bleeding a lot. I had to run to the bathroom to get some band-aids and then tonight at work it came through my sock. Anyway, a crappy night at work because of my toe. The only down side is she is ADORABLE!!!

So here she is....oh and her eyes are not blue...it is the camera.