Wow, I love my job!

Okay say you all know, well most of you, that I am a bridal consultant at a local bridal shop here. Honestly this is the best job in the whole wide world for me! My husband tells me if there is ever a job that was made for a person it is this job for myself. I get to dress brides all day long and give them wedding ideas, do veils and tiaras.

So every month we have 4 levels set for us with our commissions. You can earn 1.5-3% of everything you sell. You automatically get 1% of every sale you make, but depending on how much you sell in a month you can get higher. Every month it is different, for May the 3% commission break was set at $13,500. So if you sold that or higher you received 3% of your sales. This month as of this morning I had the highest sales at $16,632 dollars!!! YIPEE, this is a slow month also. I was so excited you guys and love my job so much.

I love the girls I work with and the people I get to help. Even though there are all girls that work there, it isn't drama like you would expect. So all I can say is that I love my job and couldn't ask for more!

Bleach and ammonia are a bad mix???!!?? Who would have thought that!!

This last week has been an interesting one at that and it is only Wednesday. Monday morning I woke up and headed to work at around noon. Jon informed me that he was going to clean his bathroom in the office/guest room. The day was slow and it was odd because I had a really bad feeling for the time I was at work. Around 2:15pm, I heard my name over the intercom at work telling me I had a phone call. I left my bride and by the time I got to the phone the caller had hung up. The receptionist looked at caller ID and told me the number, which was Jon's. She said that he didn't sound so good over the phone. At this time I headed to the break room to call Jon and see if he needed me to come home. After two calls and no answer I told my boss I had to go and would be back after I checked on him.

I found Jon in the office/guest room bathroom passed out over the bathtub. The door was shut and the window was open in the guest room. It smelled of cleaned solution very badly and Jon was not responding. He was sweating all from head to toe and I tried to wake him up. Now I was not as worried as I did get eventually because I am used to him passing out with his tumor. So I got him to respond to me for a brief second and he said in a very very raspy voice that his lungs and throat were burning. Most of the time if I think he is really hurt and I tell him I am going to take him to the doctor he says no and that he is fine. This time I told him I was going to call 911 and he didn't argue. A little bit after calling them the police showed up and seconds later Jeremy Foutch and his uncle Mike showed up. Again shortly after that the paramedic and fire department showed up and helped Jon to get some oxygen and into the ambulance. For me that part was most difficult because I am used to taking care of him myself and was unsure of what to do at that moment in time.

Well we spent a few hours at the hospital with breathing treatments and eye drops and pain meds and finally was released later that night. Jon burned his lungs and throat with the mixture of ammonia and bleach. He didn't know that Windex has ammonia in it, so we all know now what not to mix. He is doing much better now, but still has a burning feeling and still cannot talk for the most part. But he will get better with time and now is not allowed to clean the bathrooms!!!

Can I get a "Wife's Day"??!!??

Mother's Day is a wonderful holiday for all of you lovely mothers out there. You get "rewarded" for all that you do and all that you will do for the upcoming year. Including those future mothers have this comfort in knowing the next year's mothers day will be a wonderful occasion. Flowers, cards, dinner and a wonderful array of thank yous.

But then there are those few of us who either don't want children or can't have children. Now granted those few that choose not to have children are choosing not to have a "Mother's Day". I am stuck between a rock and a hard place, I can't have children, therefore don't want children. I am sure if given the option I would have a child...but obviously for reasons other than the joy of Mother's Day. However when you are stuck like me, what happy day do we get?

What about hard working Wife's Day? My life is fun and I love every second of it. However I have a stressful life on a daily basis and every day wake up wondering if this might be the day I wind up single again. So can I have a day, a day of rest and relaxation. A day where I get a present that says, "You work hard, you are loved and deserve to be pampered a bit". Being a Step-mother isn't even remotely close to being an actual mother. Presents and cards and thank yous just don't happen, no matter what you do.

I guess I am just complaining, and that is okay right? I just wish there was a day to celebrate and show me a little appreciation for doing the things I do. Even though I am not a mother I am still a hard working wife.

(O.K. stepping down for my soap box now.)

Kanzius Caner Machine

This is by far one of the most amazing things I have ever seen. I can only imagine what this could do in the future. But hopefully not that far in the future!

A big blurry movie!

My life has become a big old blurry movie it seems. I wake up and get as much housework done as I can, check my e-mails, blogs and bank accounts online. Then I eat breakfast, if I am lucky. Get ready for work and spend 7-8 hours running around dressing up brides. Now don't get me wrong, I love my job very much. I also have to admit that I am pretty damn good at it too. But on a non closing night I get home and spend a little bit of time with my husband. Watch a movie or play poker, something to spend time together. We get exhausted and head to bed to wake up and do it all over again. On a closing night I get home around 10:00pm. Then spend a half hour with Jon and then we crash.
I never have time for anything else anymore, not only that, but no desire to do much. I don't sleep well so I take stuff to help me sleep. Which only makes me more tired in the morning when I don't get 12 hours of sleep. Again I totally dig my job and wouldn't trade it for anything. I guess I am just tired and kind of depressed that I have a dirty house and no clean clothes anymore. I start laundry and then get busy with other things, so it sits there for days on end.
I feel like I am losing part of who I am right now. Almost like a robot in this daily routine and I can't seem to break the cycle. It is driving me nuts to have a dirty house and a pile of laundry that could make a dump jealous. But it is so not typical of me to let it go.
Anyway, just feeling kind of crummy right now. Feeling like I don't have a lot of my life anymore. I love hanging out with Jon and a few friends that I do have. But otherwise I just kind of am flowing through life with this big blindfold on and not sure what or where I am headed next.

I just don't understand...

On Monday afternoon a young seven year old girl left her apartment in South Salt Lake. Her name was Hser Nay Moo, and she was just a little girl! This little girl was just walking around near her own home and and an Amber Alert had to be issued. I am unsure as to what this damn world is coming to!

Today at 7:00pm the police knocked on three doors that were unanswered on Monday. The first two brought nothing and a third door was answered. This apartment brought the worst kind of news ever. They found this young girl in the bathroom of this apartment deceased. This apartment was occupied by five men, and the police only said that she had signs of "trauma". Which can only indicate one thing if you ask me. What makes me sick is that five grown men took a child, a young girl, from her home. They took her and hurt her and killed her and destroyed the lives of so many people. She was an only daughter and I can't even imagine, nor do I want to imagine what they might be going through.

My thoughts and prayers go out to her family and friends. Her friends at school who cannot understand what has happened. When I was in elementary school a girl was taken from her home and found dismembered in a garbage can a few days later. I remember this and it was a thing that no one ever expected or even could fathom happening in our society. And it makes me sick to think that this kind of a thing happens almost 3-4 times a year now. Children being taken from their families and hurt in so many ways, then their life taken.

I guess the one thing I am happy about is that in Utah we still have the death penalty and we use it on some occasions. However we do have death by firing squad, so that is one small hope for these pieces of garbage that did this. My heart is broken for this family and while watching the new conference I could see it struck a chord with the police. There was no dry eye among them and you could see their hearts were hurting tremendously.

All I can say is I know at least the life after this life for these kinds of people will be hell....literally! Keep her family in your thoughts prayers.

Snow, snow go away, come again....never!

UGGG!! I am so tired of snow. I hate snow in the first place, but throw some in at the end of March and my frustration turns to disdain! Seriously, it is spring, it is almost April and there is snow on the ground. What is that?!?!?!?! I am getting my house all cleaned out, I guess you could call it spring cleaning. But I'm not sure if you can call it that since it seems to be February outside still!!! Arg, I am really getting annoyed and if it snows again in the near future...I will...well I don't know. I guess I will keep complaining or something. I just wish it would go away, I want flowers and green grass and trees and sunshine!